Life - Ain't it Unpredictable...???

Thought about it once, thought about it again, gave it another thought, yet another one & Finally, decided to write this blog. Hmmm, have never shared PRATEEK wid people around, will be tough to share my own self here, but just giving it a try... :)

LIFE - Given to a few BLESSED PEOPLE to experience the BEST & WORST, PEOPLE WHO GETS THE BEST OUT OF THE WORST ARE THE ONES WHO HAVE LIVED THEIR LIVES WID PRIDE...

Life has defined itself in so many different ways:
@ the age of 12, it was a GAME, tried playing RASH;
@ the age of 16, it was a GAME, tried playing SAFE;
@ the age of 20, its a RACE, tried coping up with its PACE;
@ the age of 24, its a challenge, worth undertaking;
Today, running 28, Life seems to be a DESTINATION, which shall never ends.

It all started in my schooling, Daly college (DC), Indore. My school had so much to offer. DC certainly made me a human being, worthy to be on earth, but couldn't find MY REASON for being on EARTH.

Schooling was over, and Life was still sooooo unpredictable still. Thats when the REAL LIFE started. College, every school boy dreams of being a SENIOR in COLLEGE. and ENJOY LIFE to the FULLEST here. Similarly, I too experienced every bit in my 5 yrs of colleging. Every day was different, every minute was fun, Every year was with different goals in mind. I wanna be a Doctor, I wanna do a job, I wanna be a Cricketer, and finally I WANNA BE A SINGER.

Life was just passing by, never had a GOAL set in LIFE. My college years had all to offer, thats when I found my angels I've always been looking out for, MY TRUE FRIENDS. WOULD FEEL PROUD NAMING EM ALL: My childhood friend, Sumit (the only one gem i've had till then), Priyanka, Purvi, Kuunal (Who helped me find my talent, helped me meet one of my Idol, Shantanu Mukherji, as we know him, SHAAN.), Salomee, Prasoon, Ankur, Anjali, Sudeep, Khushboo, Raj, Aditi, Shreya, Urvi, Mandy, Meghana, Amita, Gauri, Anita, Avani, Anshu, Anubhuti, Riya, Shweta, Twinkle, Kinal, Riya, Deepti, Poorva, Avi bhai, Richa, Mickey, Niraj, Puja, Puja J, Poonam, Kanu, Durva, Chani (Deepika), Heeral, Priya & Sonia, Paragi & ofcourse, not to forget my YO ! GROUP in my Post Graduation years (If I forgot to mention YOU, I STILL RESPECT YOU THE SAME.). I can now say, I NOW HAVE MUCH MORE THAN MY OWN SHARE. Everyone has his own special loving place in my heart, and shall always be the closest. I will never be able to express myself in words HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ALL...

College was over, all my gifted friends, helped me clear my goal in Life. Singing, something that I wanted to do, Singing - something which gave me happiness, Singing which gave me a reason to DREAM. Singing, which made me realise WHAT IS CAREER. Singing - My Soul, Singing, a reason for my being, Singing for which I left my family back in Indore, Lied to my family and came to Mumbai to do a job, not knowing HOW, WHERE, WHEN, WITH WHOSE HELP WILL I FULFILL MY DREAM. But just took the responsibility, I knew, I won't be able to change the circumstances, I won't be able to change the seasons, or wind, but was confident enuf of CHANGING MYSELF.

Came to Mumbai, with my family's help, settled myself in the city of dreams, city of music in the city where all my idol's are. Still not sure what to do, somehow managed to find a house and started my professional career, my FIRST PROFESSIONAL JOB, Intelenet Global Services Ltd. Which helped me earn my bread.

This is when I first spoke with Shaan who helped me get my first GURU, Resp Ghulam Murtuza Khan (Elder Son of the Living Legend: Resp. Ustad Ghulam Mustufa Khan Sahab), who always helped me be a better human being every passing day. With Music, he helped me know LIFE & Humanity. He helped me know myself. Even today, way away from music, he never misses a chance to say a hello.

STILL DIDN'T KNOW THE REASON, WHY AWAY FROM MY SOUL. MUSIC...

NOW: (Words changed a bit) I'VE LEARNED TO GET IN TOUCH WITH THE SILENCE WITHIN MYSELF, NOW I KNOW, EVERYTHING IN LIFE HAS A PURPOSE...
- - Elisabeth Kubler - Ross

TODAY, with Reliance Life, with such an amazingly unbelievable Manager (Karan) & Friends cum colleagues (Sameer, Vipul, Vishal, Prabhat, Suraj) around, with a Very Good job, still finding something void in air. SOMETHING STILL MISSING FROM MY SOUL.

Still confused, is this the reason why I've come to Mumbai, leaving my family alone back in Indore, who're the soul reason for my living. My Mom, who sacrificed every bit of her happiness to support me for everything I wanted. My Dad, who gave every penny of his job just to see me succeed. My Grand parents for whom, I've always been the Best Grand Son on EARTH. My Chacha/Chachi Who always Believed in me, without whose guidance & support I wouldn't have been where I am today. My most loving SISTERS & My Closest friend-my Younger Brother, Who has never seemed is a cousin, he has been much more than a CLOSEST & DEAREST FRIEND. GATTOO, (Miss you loads, Come back soon man) Who again has been the best of friend, always there to support. All my Loving distant family members too. Deepu D, Nikhil, Abhi, Baby, Love you all loads, You all mean a world to me...

Still confused, am I going the way I've always dreamt of, am I on earth for this ? Still Missing My Best gift that the Almighty has given to me. ITS MY SOUL - WHO HAS ALWAYS BEEN LOYAL TO MY OWN DESIRES, IT HAS ABANDONED ITSELF TO MY MASTER PASSION...

I've now realised - THE INDISPENSABLE FIRST STEP TO GETTING TE THINGS YOU WANT OUT OF LIFE IS : DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT, AND I NOW KNOW, WHAT I WANT IN LIFE, THE PURPOSE OF MY LIVING.

I've realised: The greatest danger for most of us is not that our AIM / GOAL is TOO HIGH & WE MISS IT, but ITS TOO LOW AND WE ACHIEVE IT EASILY.

I've realised: I will not limit myself - only to what seems possible or reasonable, I will not disconnect myself from what I truely want. I DON'T WANNA COMPROMISE...

I will not fail just because someone thinks, I lack skills or aptitude to reach my Goal - BUT I DON'T MIND FAILING BELIEVING THAT I WILL FULFILL MY DREAM. I WILL REACH IT...

I'VE FINALLY REALISED: I'LL NOT TRY, BUT I WILL DO IT...

YOU WEREN'T AN ACCIDENT. YOU WEREN'T MASS PRODUCED. YOU AREN'T AN ASSEMBLY-LINE PRODUCT. YOU WERE DELIBERATELY PLANNED, SPECIFICALLY GIFTED & LOVINGLY POSITIONED ON THE EARTH BY THE MASTER CRAFTSMAN...